" I "
Dear Biker,
It was hot and very pretty up here today. Felt like a almost real summers day. But everyone is holding their breaths.
I had a better day then yesterday. Put out the word that I want to sell my office leather chair. Will print out a little flyer and take it with me every where. Would really like to actually sell it, so I can then put the money towards the new one.
Poet keeps talking about "Intention." I've heard it some where before but can't place it. Someone I knew years ago did the same thing, but I wasn't totally open to it, as I am finding myself right now to be. And I know You talk to me about it within the Don Carlos's Wheel , but it's been a bit lost on me, although I might be able to understand it more right now. And I mean right now!
Just the same I went looking online to see what I could find, and found this list for one thing.
Intentions List
While reading some of these, I felt something within, do something it did long ago. I calmed down and heard myself deep in side. Just me. I heard that same "sound" years ago when I read the words - I approve of myself - on the second or third page of Hay's book. After that feeling and connection, I looked on Amazon.com to see if there were any books on the subject and happily I found one for $2.98! It's called:
The Book of Intentions: The First Step in Creating a More Fulfilling Life
From the Publisher Whether or not we're conscious of them, intentions lie behind everything we think, say and do. Those intentions are either based on love, or they're not. And where there is no basis of love, there is chaos. In The Book of Intentions, Diane Martin shows you how to become aware of your intentions, how to accept responsibility for them, how to take control of them, and how to base them on respect, kindness, and love. These are all steps in the process of spiritual growth, a process that leads us to a more harmonious, productive, and satisfying experience for ourselves and others. The book consists of a series of statements, each beginning with those two small but amazingly powerful words: "I intend." As you read through these statements, you embark on a spiritual journey that will enable you to see your relationships to family and friends, colleagues and strangers, society and nature, and to Earth itself, from a more elevated and enlightened perspective. You will begin to understand the immense strength
and joy in life that comes from consciously intending to use your "thoughts, words, and actions solely for good."
I thought "what the heck!" for $2.98, if don't like it, I'll give it to the library or whatever.
It seems some part of me of has been realizing that my way of thinking, my very taught way of thinking, is so incredibly negative that I am really really FIGHTING myself now.
And yesterday's pain was just horrible! When I got in bed last night, I just cried over the amount of total pain I felt thru out my entire body. Everything hurt. Every where! Hands/fingers, legs/joints, neck/shoulders - everything every where, the in-betweens
and the outsides, all of me. I put my legs up on two pillows and that eased the pain everywhere. As I placed my hands on my belly, the way Spirit Pretty had taught me how to do, I started concentrating my thoughts on my belly. Asking without asking....why are you in so much pain. After I while it hit me, I was in so much pain, because that is how I have been viewingmyself - AS A PAINED BODY! I'd been looking at it from the "wrong" direction!
And here, here was my answer. My entire body was showing to me what my thoughts and beliefs have always been. PAINED and HURTing! As I lay there, with my hands on my belly, I just listened to Body. Everything everywhere just hurt. And somehow, I can't tell you how, I felt like "I" Pieces, was finally listening to Body Pieces. And WE decided that something within was in painand felt that maybe, just maybe it was dying - of the pain. There couldn't be not onemore thing in pain in and on me, like there had been yesterday and the days leadingup to it, oh omg that night just before climbing into bed, and now while laying there.
Somewhere in talking to myself, to Body, I fell asleep.
This morning was same, but also different. My body felt different. Lighter. I was in an odd space when you called this morning. I was battling between a habit out of fearand a new sense that all old just had to change. Old in my house, in my everyday living.
I will write to you about one of those habits that cause me much physical pain, but not quite ready yet.
With the above list of Intentions in my mind, I decided to try doing just one. And as Ileft the house this morning, while walking to the car, I said "I intend on having a niceday today."
WOW....what a difference! I seemed to be more clear on me in my day. I heard myself make a conscious choice on whether I wanted to be on one side of a road or the other....saying okay Would you rather be on the side of the road that let's people intoit's lane, or on the other worrying about whether someone will let you into their lane?" I decided I would much rather be the kind hearted person who KNEW she was going tolet folks in front of her! I had to giggle. Up until today, I'd been fussing with myself almost every Tuesday morning, which side of that particular road way did I want to be on. It was nice to hear myself have an opinion and say it and do it and back it up. This morning there was no one to let in, but I know I will take that side of the road nextweek, and that makes for one less thing to hear me fuss about. Today I had a nice day. Today I was conscious of the choices I made in order to maintain the desire to have a nice day. There was some moment where I could have gotten mad at someone, short with them and chose not to. It certainly didn't seem" important enough" and I totally don't remember what it was now, so it must not have
been.
I'm going to try it again tomorrow. See what happens.
Have you been trying to tell me about this Biker, thru Carlos? And whatever not?
If so....I've been listening.
Going to bed. Need to get off this, yet another, uncomfortable chair of mine.
Love you tons!
Pieces of Parts
Subj: Re: "I"
My eyes are full of tears, tears of joy. Tears of Love. keep this letter, it is the kindest thing you have ever done. To you. yes, absofuckinglutely right. it as if we all conspire no?
look at the wheel and don juan anew my love.
see....
all my love
biker
It was hot and very pretty up here today. Felt like a almost real summers day. But everyone is holding their breaths.
I had a better day then yesterday. Put out the word that I want to sell my office leather chair. Will print out a little flyer and take it with me every where. Would really like to actually sell it, so I can then put the money towards the new one.
Poet keeps talking about "Intention." I've heard it some where before but can't place it. Someone I knew years ago did the same thing, but I wasn't totally open to it, as I am finding myself right now to be. And I know You talk to me about it within the Don Carlos's Wheel , but it's been a bit lost on me, although I might be able to understand it more right now. And I mean right now!
Just the same I went looking online to see what I could find, and found this list for one thing.
Intentions List
While reading some of these, I felt something within, do something it did long ago. I calmed down and heard myself deep in side. Just me. I heard that same "sound" years ago when I read the words - I approve of myself - on the second or third page of Hay's book. After that feeling and connection, I looked on Amazon.com to see if there were any books on the subject and happily I found one for $2.98! It's called:
The Book of Intentions: The First Step in Creating a More Fulfilling Life
From the Publisher Whether or not we're conscious of them, intentions lie behind everything we think, say and do. Those intentions are either based on love, or they're not. And where there is no basis of love, there is chaos. In The Book of Intentions, Diane Martin shows you how to become aware of your intentions, how to accept responsibility for them, how to take control of them, and how to base them on respect, kindness, and love. These are all steps in the process of spiritual growth, a process that leads us to a more harmonious, productive, and satisfying experience for ourselves and others. The book consists of a series of statements, each beginning with those two small but amazingly powerful words: "I intend." As you read through these statements, you embark on a spiritual journey that will enable you to see your relationships to family and friends, colleagues and strangers, society and nature, and to Earth itself, from a more elevated and enlightened perspective. You will begin to understand the immense strength
and joy in life that comes from consciously intending to use your "thoughts, words, and actions solely for good."
I thought "what the heck!" for $2.98, if don't like it, I'll give it to the library or whatever.
It seems some part of me of has been realizing that my way of thinking, my very taught way of thinking, is so incredibly negative that I am really really FIGHTING myself now.
And yesterday's pain was just horrible! When I got in bed last night, I just cried over the amount of total pain I felt thru out my entire body. Everything hurt. Every where! Hands/fingers, legs/joints, neck/shoulders - everything every where, the in-betweens
and the outsides, all of me. I put my legs up on two pillows and that eased the pain everywhere. As I placed my hands on my belly, the way Spirit Pretty had taught me how to do, I started concentrating my thoughts on my belly. Asking without asking....why are you in so much pain. After I while it hit me, I was in so much pain, because that is how I have been viewingmyself - AS A PAINED BODY! I'd been looking at it from the "wrong" direction!
And here, here was my answer. My entire body was showing to me what my thoughts and beliefs have always been. PAINED and HURTing! As I lay there, with my hands on my belly, I just listened to Body. Everything everywhere just hurt. And somehow, I can't tell you how, I felt like "I" Pieces, was finally listening to Body Pieces. And WE decided that something within was in painand felt that maybe, just maybe it was dying - of the pain. There couldn't be not onemore thing in pain in and on me, like there had been yesterday and the days leadingup to it, oh omg that night just before climbing into bed, and now while laying there.
Somewhere in talking to myself, to Body, I fell asleep.
This morning was same, but also different. My body felt different. Lighter. I was in an odd space when you called this morning. I was battling between a habit out of fearand a new sense that all old just had to change. Old in my house, in my everyday living.
I will write to you about one of those habits that cause me much physical pain, but not quite ready yet.
With the above list of Intentions in my mind, I decided to try doing just one. And as Ileft the house this morning, while walking to the car, I said "I intend on having a niceday today."
WOW....what a difference! I seemed to be more clear on me in my day. I heard myself make a conscious choice on whether I wanted to be on one side of a road or the other....saying okay Would you rather be on the side of the road that let's people intoit's lane, or on the other worrying about whether someone will let you into their lane?" I decided I would much rather be the kind hearted person who KNEW she was going tolet folks in front of her! I had to giggle. Up until today, I'd been fussing with myself almost every Tuesday morning, which side of that particular road way did I want to be on. It was nice to hear myself have an opinion and say it and do it and back it up. This morning there was no one to let in, but I know I will take that side of the road nextweek, and that makes for one less thing to hear me fuss about. Today I had a nice day. Today I was conscious of the choices I made in order to maintain the desire to have a nice day. There was some moment where I could have gotten mad at someone, short with them and chose not to. It certainly didn't seem" important enough" and I totally don't remember what it was now, so it must not have
been.
I'm going to try it again tomorrow. See what happens.
Have you been trying to tell me about this Biker, thru Carlos? And whatever not?
If so....I've been listening.
Going to bed. Need to get off this, yet another, uncomfortable chair of mine.
Love you tons!
Pieces of Parts
Subj: Re: "I"
My eyes are full of tears, tears of joy. Tears of Love. keep this letter, it is the kindest thing you have ever done. To you. yes, absofuckinglutely right. it as if we all conspire no?
look at the wheel and don juan anew my love.
see....
all my love
biker
posted by Pieces Of Parts at Wednesday, June 01, 2005
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