HIM: Your Girls

I know what you are doing down there.

You are gathering up everything you just learned from MS.

You didn't talk about it with me, but I knew. I knew long ago, that RoadNoRun was some part of your "DAD" and his wife some parts of your Mother. And in general your upbringing.

I knew when I met you in Hag-town, I was meeting a Biker that had grown up in that environment. I knew you had relived your childhood.

When at the restaurant, you called Ms.M., you didn't see how you were with her. I did. It had become your norm with her, or she was like your past women and all of that was what you dealt with long ago. And you needed your Worrier when you were 14, to get the hell out of your hell.
I was meeting that boy. That BIG boy, in a man's sized body.

And as much as I knew you had forgotten about me, YOU HAD TO, in order to relive your old life, your upbringing.

You allowed me to be witness to your boy pains.

I know what you are doing down there now. You are healing. And getting ready to give all that you have learned and all that you need to find, to give all you have to the only two woman that are yours. Your daughters.

I don't think that me dealing head on with my Dad, is very different from what you will be doing soon, up north.

I am a daughter. And I would like my Father to do his work. So that we can have something I can finally call my own, with him.

I KNOW WHAT YOU ARE DOING DOWN THERE!!

I do NOT mean to be sounding selfish. For I would in one moment step aside for the good of your daughters.

You need to give everything you have ever learned how to do. Everything you have now felt for just your own first times. Everything you have been witness to. And Everything you have chosen to do, choices made, lost friends by them choices. All of it, you will bring to the table, to your daughters.

You need to forget me again, in order to take it all in. Feel every inch of all that pain. Work it all out, and open it up, and not worry of me, cause you know I'm taking care.

I don't mean to sound petty or selfish. I'm in a scary place with my Dad, but I am bringing it on me. I am choosing to bring it on me!!!!!

I just am Woman. Going thru my own growing pains.

But no matter...

I KNOW, BEEN KNOWING, WHAT you are doing down there!

I am no fool.


I KNOW.

And I adore you for going into all these dark places. You have my utmost respect.
With or without me. I don't matter, in the short term.
Your girls totally and completely do!

what a mirror!

Love you!
Pieces of Parts


You are SO fucking missed!

***
Weeks later:

You are so wonderful! I cannot ever begin to deserve you in my life. you are most precious to me.
I so love you and feel the same.
Biker