Own Your Own Piece of the Part - 2

Because of the TOO many things she wrote in her response to my last letter sent (Own Your Own Piece of the Part)
Because of ALL the PAGES OF WAY TOO MUCH INFORMATION.
Because of ALL THE TOTAL ASSUMPTIONS MADE.
Because of the CONTINUED POINTING OF FINGERS.
Because of ALL THE SHOULD, SHOULD, SHOULD, YOU SHOULD DO THIS OR THATs.
AND in the last paragraph...
Because of ALL HER ***RED*** ASSUMPTIONS MADE below....
Because of ALL HER ***RED*** SHOULDS below:

"Now that I understand you need to see me in order to continue our friendship, to see how we have changed and to see if we even like each other ... if we truly want to explore this, we should make a commitment and plan to get together some time this coming new year. Since you travel up north to visit with your folks on a regular basis, why don't you let me know a few weeks in advance when you think you may be coming up this way and I could meet you in Great Banana for dinner. If midtown is easier for you, I will research some restaurants in the area we could have a pick from. This way, if you are feeling uncomfortable with our meeting you have easy access to getting back to MumTown. Sound good? If we are getting along and you would like to stay a while longer, we could head down to the OldSpace and maybe walk around and cry over the changes that taken place and that have broken my heart :)."


Because of ALL of the endless ASSUMPTIONS MADE & the endless SHOULDS that are of her needs ALONE. Because of the tightly wound-up BOX being layed out before me, that still within each word, was the statement of how she thinks, I really should be and do things, with the feeling that my back was being slammed against the wall, I wrote:


Dear NYC Sister of Long Ago,


I see in your letter to me, that you have just made a ton of assumptions about me.

I can't do this NYC Sister of Long Ago. I can't go back and forth with all of this right now. We are grown up and living our lives, and what happened on P.St. in Great Banana is long gone and over.

I have a lot on my plate at the moment that really needs my full attention. I can not afford anymore of these intensive conversations of unspoken feelings on both our parts, assumptions made about each other and towards each other. Hurt feelings, sad feelings, pointing finger feelings, shoulds and let bes. There is just too much information, too many years of it to go over in email form. Too much brain power to get it in the right frame of mind, in order to write it all out to be clear.
I just don't have it in me. I've tried in the last two letters, and I am exhausted.

I have no time for meeting up with you right now or on the first of the year even. Perhaps some day during the next summers months. But my plans are up in the air as to which country I will be in then. And I am still a freelancer, so things will just have to find themselves, if they are truly supposed to.

That is really the best I can offer.
I literally have nothing more in me at this moment.

Love always,
Pieces

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I won't be in contact any further Pieces. Do take care of yourself. Only good things are wished for you.

NYC Sister of Long Ago

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"Do take care of yourself. Only good things are wished for you."

Same to you NYC Sister of Long Ago.

Love always,
Pieces
"We must be the change we wish to see."
- Gandhi

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Subject: Thank you for your card...

received it just a moment ago. Unfortunately, you had the old address from three years ago. In case you would like to have it for the future ... I am in near the moon and around the stars.

Will always carry you close to heart. Thanks again.
NYC Sister of Long Ago

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